Anna had another eye appointment yesterday. The good news (I guess it's good) is that her eyes are the same as a month ago (that means that her right eye is clear, I believe, and the left eye still has some cells there, but much improved since the spring---February and March). We continue with the same treatment. I guess it's a good appointment since nothing is worse. I was just hoping for more improvement, so that we could start decreasing medications; my expectations were too high, I guess, so I'm just a bit disappointed. And then sometimes I think of the "what ifs"---Anna's eye pressures were hovering in the low 20's (they took three pressure readings from each eye), and I worry that if her pressures rise, then we'll need to take her off the Pred Forte drop to her left eye. And if we do that, will the inflammation get worse? She's already on a generous dose of Cyclosporine, so if we have to stop the Pred Forte drops and the inflammation worsens, will that mean that we need to think about Remicade or Humira again?

Nevertheless, I always tell my kids we can't live in the "what if's" in life. I need to NOT worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow has enough worries of it's own. Just live in today and be at peace that for now. Anna's eyes aren't any worse, and for the next six weeks, we stay with the course that we're on.